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2005-01-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

sorry dudes & dudettes...
not in my mood to update this shit...

2005-01-03T13:25:00.000+08:00

the tragedies around us, its the beginning of the end...

2004-12-31T15:17:00.000+08:00

shitto...i didnt update this thingy for guite some time huh. hahah. so let me summarise all the shits i did for the past few days alright...

on wednesday, went out to meet mas outside taka, went jalan-jalan and did some shopping. again, she tend to bring out the topic of "patching-up" and "our future" in our conversations. shit, why cant she just give me a break huh?? after that i went for another interview at raffles hotel. kind of shitty, worsens my mood. i hate the interviewers, showed me that same fucking cocky face and monotone voice like ken lim's. assholes. then went to eat at shaw house. sekali urgent call from her mom, so she went home early. met boy-indon at wisma and we head to "the big christmas tree" to see shida sweetie-pie!! heheh. met other fellow fajarians there too. she's not bad laa, can dance. i tried to meet her after her item, but she's already gone. too bad la dude...hahah!!

yesterday, a fuckingly boring day. spent most of my day at home lazing around and just chatting. chat all the way till 4am with her. hahah. basically, that's all uhh...

2004-12-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

went to lepak at paragon just now, then got 2 job-interviews to attend. weather was nice, but suddenly rained cats and bitches. hahaha. both interviews went smooth uhh. but i have to fight for those jobs with about a dozen other schittos. damn. but nevermind, i've still got another interview tomorrow. hope i get at least a job uhh, i'm fucking tired of lazing around at home collecting dust. and believe it or not, i surprisingly missed skewl!! actually i missed some people in fajar uhh...how i wish i can turn back time!! hahaha. too bad i cant...

tomorrow, she will be doing her debut dance appearance!! i'm looking forward to it. so i'll head there after my interview...dont wanna miss it!! please God...hahaha!!

2004-12-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

see beh suay siaa. since my fucking bro using prepaid, out of kesian i let him use my line sim card uhh. what happen? hell, he everyday sms his goddamn girlfren like there's no limit siot. the outcome? he bust the fucking bills again!! in 3 mths, he chalked up about $600!! i can use that amount to splurge myself on other better stuffs siakk...buto kau la boy!! bodo!! and the best part? my parents blamed me for it. fucking fairness? to piss me off further, my line will be cut-off while he get to keep his prepaid shit. tell me, who wont go mad? luckily he's my own bro, if not i would have been sentenced to death for killing him siaa...

2004-12-25T01:09:00.000+08:00

its all over. my mission have crashed, real hard. she's now avoiding me. how long? i dont know. can be as long as she want to, or even till i die. hahah. i cant possibly stop her, right? yeah, quite saddened by the whole thing. but it's alright, at least i can be happy for my beloved sis. yes ppl, hers bloomed. she's now attached. a new guy as christmas present. hahah. very happy for her...

* growing up in life is never a straight road... *

2004-12-23T20:27:00.000+08:00

too much shits going on in my head. too much that i cant even think straight. i think i should just move on and forget about her. but i think i should hold on and try harder. damn, i dont have the confidence. and i doubt that she's interested. shida as my girl? bloody hell, this is not a fairytale scene where a princess can live happily with a beast!! slim chance taufiq...slim chance. i look into the mirror and what do i see? an asshole ugly enough to be the next william hung. tell me, who the hell wants? hahaha

2004-12-23T11:46:00.000+08:00

my sister kontot and fazeera.

aint they cute?!? like me roit?!? bwahahah.

miss 'em siaaa...hahah.

2004-12-22T10:51:00.000+08:00

haiz. it's just me & my suay love life again...

i'm at the final phase of securing her as my girl. i like her fuckingly lot. and the same goes to her. but she's now stuck and confused wether to accept me as her guy or not. all this happened because of some of her friends, her 'batu api' friends in this case. they said bad things about me, which i dont know what uhh. she dont know who to listen to, and who to trust. haiz. suay right? like i told you all before, i'm nothing. i'm beginning to feel tired of falling in love again...

yes, really...

2004-12-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

forever in your eyes

the touch of your hand, the smell of your skin,
the taste of your lips on mine, once again.
i watch you, as if it's the last time I'll see you,
i wonder how I got lucky enough to find you.
each day it's wonderful waking up beside you,
please tell me heart, are you out of control for that love too?
the way you show me how much you care,
the way your scent lingers, even when you're not there.
the way you hold me when all else is wrong,
and tell me you love me, when I don't feel very strong.
i know you're the one, and where my future lies.
i can't help but love you, when I see forever in your eyes.

2004-12-16T13:53:00.000+08:00

to my 'fren' nurliyani,

we're 'frens' for 3 mths already.
many things happened, both good and bad.
being your fren, at most times i feel happy.
but sumtimes you get me real mad.
we got into fights countless times,
and all of 'em ended in peace.
but i think you've gone too far this tyme,
too far that i got so fucking pissed.
i know you're happy for what you've done,
jealousy killed the 'friendship' we've made.
shit happens but cant be undone,
and i'm sorry to say, our 'friendship' is now DEAD...

your "friend"...
TaufiQ

2004-12-10T16:08:00.000+08:00

smalam mas pitam kat skola. tak tau knape uhh, so ari nih bawak die gi cck polyclinic ard 12pm. jumpe doc, check-check den skali doc ckp yg mas pitam maybe psal pregnant!! nabey...terperanjat berok aku dibuatnye!! aku tau mas takkan buat keje bodo camtu siaa. for further checks, die kene gi KK hosp by 3pm. so meetup ngan akak die kat hosp. check sane-sini, at last dapat result. rupenye low-blood pressure...cibai nye doc, bagi aku lawak preggie-scare pulakk!! hahah...naseb baek aku...k ah, update again later...

2004-12-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

Cold - Crossfade

Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you, I’m always wrapped up in things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by, something strong like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so

Cold to you, I’m sorry about all the lies, maybe in a different light,
You can see me stand on my own again cause now I can see
You are the antidote that got me by, something strong like a drug that got me high

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold

Never meant to be, so cold

I never really wanted you see the screwed up side of me
That I keep locked inside of me so deep, it always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go, so many things you should have known
I guess for me there’s just no hope; I never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold

2004-12-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm...hav been goin out da whole day, farkin tired siaa. pagi-pagi lagik aku da bangon, kitorg gi training bola, psal bdk-bdk unity sume sial last-min mintak postpone match. trbangon lambbat la, ape ah...nabeyy cibai uhh aku ckp!! training was funn...tapi panas maut, dah mcm suntan siott. hahah. lepas bola kitorg gi lepak pulakk, balek siang pon umah tkde org, lagipon tkde pape nk buat kann. lepak-lepak den ciao gi umah mas, ade hal nk didiscusskan. wont elaborate on dat uhh. den gi bukit panjg plaza pulak, gi beli barang. terjumpe liyana ngan adek farhana kat sane...liyana dah maken jambu lakk eh. hahah. tapi sory uhh, not interested. lepas tuh, balek tido uhh.......hahah

2004-12-07T13:12:00.000+08:00

eh mas, i da naek bebuih mulot ckp ngn u ah. ckp ngn u mcm ckp ngn tembok tau tak. please la eh, get dis inside inside ur thick head...yani n myself are juz FRENS...no more then dat!! ok i repeat...i'm juz her gig fren...tu je...ade paham takk?!? kalo maseh tk paham jgak, tu u nye psal ah. pastu jgn nk blang kwn2 rapat u yg i maen timer la eh...ouh neway, i ngn u da lame break, so 'maen-timer' is not da word to use...alrite?!?

*dis entry here is directed only to mas.

2004-12-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

holy shitt sia. kes dah lamer tak maen bola full-game gaknye, satu badan saket-saket siott..!! hahah. maen bola pulak ngan orang-orang gile gaknye, habes kaki aku kene sapu. kepale lutot aku naek bengkak, lebam-lebam tulang kering aku dibuatnye. nabey citut betol!! nmpaknye tak dapat lawan ngan budak-budak unity uhh aku besokk. haiz. semangat dah naek, skali badan buat hal pulakk...k uhh, aku mau landing...ngantokk uhh...

2004-12-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

wokay...juz came back from all-out lepaking. where? do what? wif who? i dont wanna say. i juz need some peace. i dont now why i cant control my temper lately, flaring up even at the slightest things. haiz. wadda hell. and i really wanna apologise to yani. ive pissed her off so many times already. yeah, i'm gettin a lil too sensitive sia. i'm veri sorie eh yani. very sorry.

2004-12-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

she's goddamn suhwittt, aint she..? too bad she's just my friend....heheh.

2004-12-02T01:49:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps,

no updates at the moment.....

i just dont have the mood to do this bloggie shit.....

2004-11-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

wadda hell..?? i wont change n i'm always a phucking FLIRT..?!? ape salah aku da buat sakk..?? ade budak ajak aku PHONESEKS tapi aku ignore budak tuh, pon kirekan aku nihh FLIRT jugak..?? aku tak paham sia...aku betol nye tak paham. asal asek aku je yg salah..?! baru je ari tuh baek-baek...hari nih da gado balek. since kau ckp "..we'll never be friends..", aku takle buat pape...ni terserah pade kau. if you tink dat i dont fit to be your fren, please tell me so.....

gotta ciao, otak aku da naek saket...

2004-11-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

please girl, i can forgive you, but reaccept you? no, i wont waste my love on you again. i know you well enough. you can cheat me once, but never twice. i was blind. now i'm not.

2004-11-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

wwoohhoo...0-levels overr..!! now i can enjoy to da maxx..!! hahah. so now i wanna kick da shit of smoking completely, but its fucking difficult siaa. afta 1mth clear from smoking, i start again. and wadda hell...guess wat, my throat problem healed onli afta i smoke siaa. got some kind of medication in da ciggie izzit? hahah.

wokayy...my fever is almost gone. i can feel it goin away. yeahh...da bole maen bola uhh ni macam!! den on saturdae, yaRnie wants me to follow her go watch a performance sumore siaa...hmmm...hopefulli i can make it uhh. pray hard k yaRnie!! bwahah.

2004-11-22T01:26:00.000+08:00

wokay...da time now is 1.36am. i juz came back from kak lin's place...phucking tired, but aint sleepy. i actualli didnt wanna go, but my mom forced me sia..."jangan degil...kak lin kau da penat-penat masak, taknak pegi pulakkk si along nihh..." wadda heck...i'm still having a fever siia, undastand-undastood la. besok pulak aku ade paper...jgn mcm geog paper sua, tido da whole duration pasal demam...hahah. eh dah arh...mau landing uhh, takot takle bangon utk paper pulakk...ciao!!

2004-11-18T19:15:00.000+08:00

harlow harlow peeps. so sorry fer not updatin, been busy uhh. understand-understood la yek. heheh. wokay...i'm still sick rite now, feverish and coughin non-stop sia. to make it worse, i noticed blood in my spit whenever i cough. phuck sia. wadda hell is wrong wif me?! i think my throat walls bleedin or sumthin uhh. yeah, most prolly...

yeah..! 0's comin to an end in 5 days time..! enjoy habis la aku lepas tuhh...heheh. hmmm...tapi mau keje uhh, onli then...ka-chinggg..! heheh.

i'm so phuckin happi dat i and dat freakie-yaRnie have reconciled..! hahah. i admit it's hard to live without her. yeah, there are so many reasons for me to sae dat uhh. so we're now back as da best gig-partner ever..! yeehaw..!

2004-11-13T17:55:00.000+08:00

I want to take this opportunity to wish all Muslims...

Selamat Hari Raya...

Maaf Zahir dan Batin...

2004-11-12T10:42:00.000+08:00

MY TAGBOARD HAS GONE BONKERS.....

NEW MESSAGES JUST W0NT FUCKING SH0W UP.....

SO SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED AITE.....

2004-11-11T01:16:00.000+08:00

T	Temperamental
A	Appreciative
U	Unnatural
F	Fresh
I	Irresistible
Q	Quintesential

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2004-11-08T18:18:00.000+08:00

THE BLOG IS DOWN AND OUT...AGAIN

2004-11-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

wokay. i won't post those shits about my love life anymore, starting as from today. the reason is pretty clear. some people misunderstood what i wrote and fucking hate me as a result. now, i think i'm losing a good friend of mine. or had already lost her as a friend. i don't know. i am very sorry to those concerned. i don't want to make enemies here. it's alright if you won't regard me as a friend anymore, i understand. but please accept my apology...

i am sorry,

2004-11-06T17:23:00.000+08:00

yeah. indeed, i am right. being too friendly can kill. some people mistook my friendliness for being a playboy. i guess i have to change back to my old self, a serious guy with no frills, no jokes and all. yeah, i guess that is what you want.

2004-11-05T01:14:00.000+08:00

i'm in LOVE with...

...with WHO?

it's YOU...

2004-10-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

harlow harlow. how's your day ppl? mine's great, am i right Mas? heheh. spent almost the whole day with her. nak kene ade some quality time la katekan...hahah. so firstly, got to help her out with her project thingy. hmmm...and guess what, her parents weren't around for the whole weekend...woohhoo!!

at last, the rain stopped. went to do some undies shopping at Jurong Point...jauh sakkk. she bought a pair for almost 30 bucks sia. phheewww...thank God i was not born a girl. so yeah, bought some pairs of green boxers to match my kurong raya. hahah. and yeah, got ourselves some food for buker also. talking of kurong raya, maybe we'll get one at geylang tomorrow k Mas. harap-harap besok tak hujan la eh...heheh...

eh, i'm tired uhh...dead sleepy. adios & peace out ppl...love & miss you too Mas...

2004-10-27T03:07:00.000+08:00

asshole. i almost died of shock when i opened the letterbox just now. my fuckingly stupid bro busted my handphone bills, chalking up $270..!! SMS je dah nak sampai 5000...tak cramp ke jari kau tu?! haiz. let him use my SIM card, now this fucking shit happen...fucking mad at him sia!!

mas,
thanks alot for bringing me back to my own self, yet again. my mood's not right lately. dont know why. so sorry if i shouted at you for no apparent reason. so sorry gerl. maybe i was fucking stressed up, with 0's just around the corner. 6 more days to go. you've shown me lots of care and concern when i was sick yesterday, so i promise i'll give you a nice treat after my exams aite. love you lots gerl...and miss you!!

2004-10-24T18:29:00.000+08:00

Not in my mood to update this shit...

...this bloggie is Downnn & Outtt

2004-10-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

haiz. 0's coming in 9 days time. i've still got to cover some of the important chapters. shit. i really hate social studies and geography. i've been a sleeping cow lately, tired from the long tarawih i guess. haiya no matter what, i still have to study them. yeah, i want at least a pass for humanities. at least wat...

aarrgghh...having a farking fever, plus heartpain and mental block...

2004-10-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

nabey. today my mood is bad, real bad. my blood's boiling hot. helping a friend blindly can kill. i shouldnt have helped her and got myself into a fistfight...a costly mistake...a stupid mistake that could have ended my life.

along the scale of bravery lies a point where stupid takes over

2004-10-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

holla. i cant stand the extreme boredom at home. i tried to sleep but i cant. so i sit at my table and tried to study. again, i cant. i just feel so restless. luckily Mas came to my rescue. she msged me, asking me out. i was so farking relieved. i would have died of boredom in my room sia. so we went to Jurong Point, dunnoe we tawaf around it for how many times. and we did talk bout us, our happy times and bad times. prolly the first time i didnt object the topic. we were somehow happy with each others presence, yet again. but NO, i've drawn the line. trying my best not to cross the line, of just being friends. sorry to let you down, yet again...

Iqah,
be strong k girl. making a mistake is normal. use that mistake to learn from it aite. neway, i'm always here if you need me, what's the use of a brother right? hahah.

2004-10-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

holla people. so today, had my 0's science practical. easier than expected though. alhamdulillah. but i dont expect the written papers to be that easy lar. after that, i was supposed to give tuition to to this kid. luckily, she's gone to skewl. hahah. so met Yani to return her sumthing at Lot1. chill there for awhile to release some tension. Mas keeps on bugging me with her msgs and calls. she's beginning to get on my nerves. really. chillout time got cut short because of her. damn it...

Yani,
dont be so down la gerl. sorry that i left early just now. neway gerl, you are my true friend. you will always be. so dont worry.

2004-10-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

holla. wokay, tomorrow's 0-level science pratical. mine's the 3rd shift, so still got some time for me to memorise the formulas and experiment steps. hmmmm. gotta stay up late to study liao. but my head's aching from studying for too long sia. the gastric pain is also bothering me non-stop. haiz. a great challenge to overcome. hopefully things go well tomorrow. amin...

Mas,
sorry for not meeting you just now, i'm really sorry. it's not that i'm trying to avoid you. i dont hate you. i'm buzy studying for my exams right now. i hope you understand. after my exams are over, you can meet me for as much as you want. always remember girl, you'll always be my friend. a true friend.

2004-10-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

harlow dudes & dudettes. 2nd day of puase oredi. so how are ya? still strong? hahah. crappin here. so i had sum light soccer training in da morning. had a fall, injured my knee & my left butt. den da gig trip got cancelled, so meetup wif mas. as usual, she wanna talk bout us. sorry, i dont. my mind is still unclear. i'm totally lost. i'm full of contradictions.

Mas,
i'm sorry to hurt u juz now. i juz tink dat we're better off as friends.

2004-10-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

holla peeps. juz came back from friday prayers. it's so hot sia outside, had to walk all the way there sumore. met a long-lost fren sia today...hahah. wat's her name uh...? ouh yar, Yana. yeah, never see her fer almost 10 years sia...yet we can still recognize each other! hahah. she's still pretty much da same arh, so small and cute. chit-chat fer awhile. but hell...i ferget to ask fer her number liao. hope i dun hav to wait another 10 yrs to meet her again! hahah.

yeah. i understand her. she's absolutely rite, staying as buddies is still da best.

2004-10-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

holla peeps. sori fer not updatin aite. so yeah, my blog received a realli nicey-nice facelift, not by me but by thegurl. a million thanx n kiszes to her, she truly deserves it. touched-up here & there by myself oso lar. hahah. tomoro da ferst day of da fasting month, so i juz came back from tarawih. hmmm, hopefully i can repeat my feat, by shedding off 15kg like i did last year. then i'll look more handsome. hahah. dream on la fiqz. u're not handsome at all. anyway, i wanna wish all Muslims a fruitful fasting month. insya'allah...

hmmmm. i think i'm falling for [insert name]. my mind and heart said so. i want to let it out. yes. but, i have to wait for the perfect time. i'm prepared for everything, even rejection.

2004-10-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

"just get your ass out of my sight & fuck off...", i said.

yeah, it's true asshole. i'm bloody pissed off with some people right now...don't look around...you could be one of them...

2004-10-10T01:09:00.000+08:00

whhooaa...i'm dead tired. in da morning, went to Unity Sec, got a friendly match with them. alot of my team players didnt turn up...haiya, buih siak diorg. my mood to play turned soggy sia...thanx alot to da rain. but heck, we juz continue though, & we lost 6-8. i didnt do a full-game coz my joints ached sia...pancit arh.

afta dat, went to Mas' place to help her wif her maths. study-mode swithed on, but fer one hour onli. both of us juz dozed off lyke cows sia. hahah. but hell, both my slippers n hers got stolen rite at her doorstep. i juz bought mine sumore. haiz...haiz...23 bucks gone. so i juz borrow her brudder's slipar burok. ard 3.45pm met Yani, i was fucking late by 45mins sia!! realli sorrie eh Yani!! so we head on fer Yishun Park fer da gig. da crowd was lyke "WOW!!"...siket giler siol. da Aishahs left earlier, so they missed da last 3 bands, which happened to be da gud ones. hahah. da BackByMonday and "sumthing-Cookies" were real good sia. took sum pics. so yeah, enjoyed my day.

Mas, bout da patchup thingy, i gotta think thoroughly bout it ferst aite. i dun want any of us to regret later...and blame each other...

Da Blues...

cey...posing seh die...

Learn to smile la idiot...
:: adios & peace out ::

2004-10-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

i cant study at home. i juz cant. da sight of my katil onli makes me wanna sleep. so yeah, went out to studie wif Yani at Civic Centre. heavenly-lot of chix there. we had blardy great tyme studying, wif birdies flying here & there. i lyke dis skinbird...its kindof cute sia, am i rite Yani? hahah.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-24T02:30:00.000+08:00

haiz. fuck sia. ppl lyke to think dat i'm juz bitter, dat da scowl i carry upon my lips is a sign of sum general disgust dat i hold for da world. but those who noe me best, noe me better. they noe dat i am not a creature filled wif bitterness & hate, but a creature filled wif luv, who is simply selective in who he spends it on.

why da fuck shud i waste sumthin as precious as luv on those who wud do nuthin but waste my fucking time? why da fuck shud i respond wif anythin but malcontent when they try to deprive me of even da smallest amount of wat i hold dear?

i'm not bitter at da world, juz da vast majority of it. ppl who want sumthin from me, my luv, my tyme, my compassion, but offer little or nuthin in return. those who add to my life and enhance my existence, i cherish, those who wud take away from it, i vanquish.

most of the world is nuthin but a dragon wif a billion heads waitin to bite & strike. a multi-fanged vampire wantin to drain me of my life & da things i hold dear. dat much i believe. but bfore u call me bitter, say it in front of those i luv & who luv me, say dat bfore those who hav earned my trust & my companionship, say it bfore those who will prove u wrong.

for i can assure u dear erroneous fool, i dun hav a prob wif da world, juz u. juz u & those lyke urself who wud drain me of my time and resources. i reali hate dat & why shudnt i? it's my duty & my fucking will to live dat causes me to despise dat. it's da same dat causes me to luv those who contribute to my existence.

so while i may be a bitter human being, at least rest assured dat i dun discriminate, i dun blanket & i dun hate needlessly. rather, i juz choose my friends very wisely & those who r da closest to me understand da value in dat.

kla, enuf typing. pardon da length & obscene laguange. u dont undastand? nvr mind. i juz wanna get those things out of my blocked brain.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-23T17:03:00.000+08:00

skewl sucks as usual. hair checks on da whole skewl, but stressed on da upper sec stewdents. kena sound by ah tong bout my hair. wats fucking wrong wif my hair sia? its bloody short wat. hair color? i've sprayed it black wat. damn, hate da skewl. its becuming more like a fucking prison than a skewl. heck la, i'm leaving it in a few months anyway. so yeah, prelims hell is over. but no party yet, da bigger hell is set to come in november. gotta make da best out of it. dis is my last chance man. do well or else i'm bound for ITE. shucks, dont say dat dude. takot mulot masin. hahah. so me & mas still da same, getting no better. i sumtimes tink dat there's no use having a gerl. but everytyme i tot of dat, i'm in love all over again & i'm always da one getting hurt in da end. haiz. haiz. haiz.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

holla. juz came back from lepaking wif faizal, da mod, cholo & aoul. give my sick head a break from stress. yeah, stress is buggin me. i tried to prove to her dad but he wont budge. real stubborn. arrogant. he wont give me a chance. her dad called me up again, asking me to get away from Mas. well, she's ur child. i cant stop u dude. Mas, i'm realli sorry. i give up. but we can always meet up afta skewl. i'll be missing u gerl. really miss u.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-21T02:22:00.000+08:00

hmmmm. not in my best mood. i've juz finished yakking on da phone wif Mas, and her dad. at ferst, she tot her dad had dozed off like a cow. so she gained the guts to call me up ard 12 midnite. we were happily talking fer almost 2 hrs. suddenly da line got cut off. i suspected dat it was juz a minor problem & waited fer her to call back. wat i didnt noe is dat da sleeping cow had become a raging bull!! he called me up & blasted me as if i raped his daughter sia. i felt like fucking shout back. but hey, give him sum respect lar or i will never prove him dat i've changed for da better. difficult. damn difficult. haiz. Mas dear, please get dis into ur head. i cant go fer Yani as a replacement of u, coz she's my fren. n furthermore, i dont think i'm dat special to her in any way. please dear. dont think negative. i'm always here fer u.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-19T02:53:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. i'm flat out. juz now went to gig at Yishun Park wif Yani, da chick. heheh. met up at CCK mrt ard 3pm and we blasted off. den dis comical moment happened in da bus. we didnt noe where da hell Yishun Park is, or even where to alight. but were quite relieved when we overheard dat da groupees sittin behind us oso goin to da gig. so decided to follow them la. skali they oso dunno how to get there!! hahah, kekek sak!! at last we made it there, smack right in da middle of da park. as usual la, da punks, da skins & da rudies were there. da gig was quite an upset, ferstly start damn late, da power failure. den a special "performace" from da skins, a small fight. hahah. mcm-mcm hal pulak eh. quite hot. so ard 8.45, kite pon blah ah. get sumthin to eat, take sum pics, go home. tanx alot-lot to Yani lar. if not for her, i'd die of boredom at home sia. lurv ya la gerl. heheh. (",) ouh yar, i've linked up to da photo album. can see it if u want to.

and lastly, i have officially broken up wif mas juz now. we're okay but we had a "big barrier" standing between us. real big, her daddums. why? sorry, wont elaborate on dat though. its all over, but life must go on. not my luck i guess.

:: Yani ::

:: Myself ::

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. todae no skewl, coz no science practical. so juz stay at home. extreme boredom. ard 12 went to skewl, go take sum books from unda my table. study for my prelims, rather than collect dust. den Mas called me, wanna meet up at Lot1. i tot she's alone there, skali appeared wif two of her frens. abit kekok coz they keep on smiling at me fer no apparent reason. but heck, i dont care. chillout fer sum tyme, den she need to go back to skewl. potong stim betol arh. hahah. realli boring when she's not ard sia. den go home, saw my ex at interchange. dah eksyen arh die. biasela, aku ni sape siot. muke aku nih mane ade org nk pandang, tk mcm die kan. makin stressed up sak aku biler piker psal nih. haiz. k relax fiq. den lepas tuh kene gi madrasah pulak. nothing happen there xcept fer alot of smoking, so skip it. balek teros online, chat ngan Yani. fuuhhh...bebual mcm-mcm hal. heheheh, so far die oryte arh. chat smpai 11.30pm. den my promise, to make Mas a late nyte call. talk-talk fer almost 2hrs & finally here i am typing. klah, long enuf alreadi. gd nyte fuckas. miss ya Mas.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. i'm dead bored but things are buggin me, so decided to type some shit in here. i'm having a big question mark hanging over me. da question is, who do i realli love? i'm going nuts over dis shit!! imagine da guilt afta i busted a gerl 4 days ago. she cried lyke hell from da moment i dismissed her till now. i didn't noe she realli love me & i tot dat its all a joke. haiz. its all a mistake, my mistake. i hope she'll accept my apology. but gerl, its not da end of da world. u're only 14 & juz tasted da beginning of love life. get over me & find a better guy aite. wokay, i'm down & out.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-10T03:54:00.000+08:00

okay, da doc said she'll be allowed to go home tomoro. glad she's coming back, rather than sit like a dumb ass in da hospital. if i'm in her place, i'll surely die of boredom sia!! hahah. i wonder how she managed that. and yeah, dear Mas' berthday coming. wat shud i buy her sia? a t-shirt? skirt? or maybe g-string? i realli dunnoe wat to buy fer my dear!! hmmmm, any wild suggestion? hahah.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

yesterdae went to dreamland. yeah, i slept from 3am all da way till 1pm. part tido nomber one siak aku. hahah. den ard 2pm moved on to gran's place, ade kenduri arwah cum celebratin my cuzz diyanah's 10th berthdae. hapie berfday to ANA..!! nothin much happened there, except fer alot of eating n smoking. heheh. afta dat, go home & sleep again!!

so todae morning play soccer at pending court till 12pm. quite gerek ah, but raining in between sia. den went fer study-group at plaza Mac, met Mas there oso. everybodi dont feel lyke studyin, sleepy shitheads lyke me!! heheh. skali got a call, my ex got admitted into hospital coz had a bad fall. haiz, malang sungguh tidak berbau. stressed up sia. move on & here i am by her tepi katil. heheh. she'll have a back-scan later arh. lurv ya, hope u'll be okay aite. till here fuckas.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

:: alahai...mendak siol ::

holla fuckas. todae is boring as hell. mas got a carnival in her skewl pulak, so didn't get to lepak together. missed her jokes & maniac laughter sia. cey rilek la, baru je satu hari tk jumper, tak mati la fiq. hahah. watched Mtv instead. bored lyke fuck. i tend to smoke more whenever i'm bored sia, dunnoe why. stock running low, so go out to restock my ciggies. den ard 3, went to play soccer. da lamer siol aku tak maen bola. skali saw atikah aka Jarum Black there. halermak, eye-sore man!! she called out to me, but heck care la. hahah. da game is OK, but da pitch is KO. fuckin patches of mimosa sia!! got scratches all over my body, saket dok!! hahah. den tyme balek pon terjumpe si Jarum Black lagik. sampaikn kwn aku ingatkn dektu mataer aku, siak je!! ape nye suwey siak ari nih. stress. smoke fer awhile, go home. bathe, eat, sleep. wake up & here i am. heheh. kla till here. eh, i've a call from mas. ciao liao fuckas.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

:: no skewl ::

yeah, no skewl. PTC-session day. so what? my momma dont give a fuck bout it either. heheh. fucking bored. grounded? fuck da barrier la. well mas didn't go skewl either, so went out wif her to kill off da boredom. ferstly went to MacRitchie. dunno why we went there in da ferst place sia. it's damn hot, but hey, she's real hot when she's sweaty!! hahah. moved on to queensway. she wanted to buy new pair of shoes coz hers broken during dat "lovely walk". not many ppl ard at dat tyme, so free browsing. got herself dis adidas shoe quite cheaply, coz she bargain lyke hell wif dat ah pek. felt hungry, so we go makan lunch sumwhere near there. den she got a call, gotta move on to her gran's place. followed her there, visit my future granny. hahah, lame joke man!! got online fer awhile using her gran's PC. chit-chat wif her gran den ciao. sent sweetie-pie home, and here i am bloggin dis shit. kla till here. enuf typing. ciao.

:: adios & peace out ::

2004-09-01T03:11:00.000+08:00

:: it's a holidae, enjoy ::

didn't go skewl yesterdae. da reason is i overslept & i'm juz plain lazy. furthermore, not worth my tyme going coz there's no studyin, juz some shit game & stuff. its definitely ok to miss da concert coz i noe its plain lame. but heck, i missed my old frens who came down sia especialli my cute fren, nure. hahah. it had been long since i last saw her sia. didn't go skewl, so go biking instead. ard 12-plus, go home coz my ex asked me out to go fer sum lingerie shoppin at 2. she got herself 2 pairs of undies fer almost 50 bucks sia!! i was freaked out of my wits man. i got myself 4 boxers fer onli half of wat she paid!! hahah. lucky i'm not a gerl. afta dat chillout at lot1 kopi bean. and yeah, restocked my ciggies supply without fail. so daddy dragon is back. hahah.

well, maybe goin fer a study session later in da evening. see ferst la. neway, there'ss umthing fucking wrong wif my blog or my comp. dat "searchmiracle.com" shit pissed me off to da core man!! aiseh, late alreadi. iqah, we'll meet up soon when i'm not buzy aite. lurv u gerl. till here fuckas. adios & peace out.

:: £õV€ ¡Qåh ƒõR £¡ƒ€ ::

2004-08-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

:: HERE WITHOUT YOU ::

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty faceA thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the sameBut all the miles had separateThey disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mindI think about you baby and I dream about you all the timeI’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreamsAnd tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say helloI hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go

Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my loveAnd when the last one falls, when it’s all said and doneit get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mindI think about you baby and I dream about you all the timeI’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreamsbut tonight girl it’s only you and me

...m¥ h€ÄR† ï§ ƒõR m¥ õnE åNÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåh...

2004-08-24T03:02:00.000+08:00

:: m¥ £õV€ ƒõR ¡Qåh nEV€R ÐïE§ ::

yes. i still lurv u iqah. i realli treasure da moments we had together. how i wish we could get back together as a lovey-dovey couple seh. heheh. i missed u alot la dear. missed ur touch. miss ur smile. missed ur laughter. basically, missed ur everything la. well, i need to hav patience. i would even wait fer ur return. but fer now, i want both of us to concentrate on our studies. i'm dead worried bout ur dropping grades la dear. study hard k. u can enjoy, but there's always a limit. plz bear in mind my dear, my love fer u will never cease as long as i live. love u alot ¡Qåh..!!

:: m¥ £õV€ ƒõR ¡Qåh nEV€R ÐïE§ ::

2004-08-16T00:59:00.000+08:00

:: boring me ::

bored to da core man, seriously fucking bored. da plan was to go have a chillout tyme at johor, restock ciggies & wadever la. but den, it rained lyke cats & bitches..so plan cancelled!! kimak betol. den da plan to hav a group-study pon buih. boring2, teros turon padang maen bola. met da other freaks there, isap rokok banyak2 lagi bagos. den tyme maen bola pulak, ade gado. terpakse aku tumbok sau bdk ciner nih. hahah. aku pon da lamer tk tumbok orang. balek je teros ngorok ah...ape lagi!! hahah.

ard 5++ pm, mashitah called me coz wanna see me urgently. actuali malas to go, tapi at last pegi jugak. hahah. we bebual psal relationships & all. den guess wat, ale2 je die nangis. da terpakse aku kene pujok die. hahah. buat aku kancheong je sia. knape? i wont elaborate on dat la. and yeah, ckp psal relationship nih, aku rase aku maseh ade hati kat ex aku, ¡Qåħ. even though die ex aku, sayang tetap sayang la. da 3 hari straight sia ¡Qåh kluar kat dlm dreams aku. tapi die ade same feelings ke tak kat aku, tu aku not sure la. cume Allah & herself je tau. hopefully, ade la. heheh. so dats all fuckas. adios & peace out.

2004-08-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

:: very tiring dae ::

hey fuckas, back bloggin. so, woke up farkin early todae. met da Bluesicive dudes ard 7.30am. moved on to yishun coz we got a bola match, kind of a "reunion" one. hahah. it had been long since we had a match sia, bout 7mths i guess. so obviously our skills da karat la. we play at dis field, or shud rather be called a desert. coz it's fucking bare!! onli got sand, so imagine how we play la. hahah. supposed to kick dat damn ball but kick up sand instead. real upset man!! it was bloody hot & everibodi malas to play sia. yeah, unsurprisingly we lost.

so afta dat went to my cuzzin's place, got to do rewang. haiz. tired dok!! but yeah, who cares. got quite a bunch of chix there wat. hahah. smoked alot there sia. den chillout wif kidah, fad rocker & kak shimah. guess wat, kidah makin jambu dok!! dah jambu, sek laktu...cume die boncit siket je ah, hahah. afta dat, go home & here i am bloggin dis shit. hahah. neway, i kept thinkin of iqah sumtimes sia. it seems my love fer her is still there. heheh. dunno how la eh. maybe she hav da same feelings fer me, or maybe not la. not sure. so enuf typin fer now, tired oredi. adios & peace out fuckas.

2004-07-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

...not a bad day... yeah, todae not bad la. but i feel a lil sick sia, maybe afta too much smoking da day before. hahah. so, i didn't get caught fer my hair color & my fucking long back hair. got some free periods juz now, so used da tyme to smoke in da toilet. den when i was on my way to report to dat damn librari, comel suddenly hugged me sia!! in front of her other frens sumore. i was so fucking shocked man. hahah. other subjs still da same la, boring maut. got da feeling of not going fer dat motherfuckin CSP, but den changed mind. go and study la fiq, hahah. go CSP, but slacked to da core sia. didn't do much in klass. talk-talk, laugh-laugh onli. dat rebecca quite fun la, talked wif her quite alot oso. afta CSP, go smoke again. 3 stix dis tyme. how to make myself stop smoking ah??? how, how??? haiz, fuck sia. klah, wanna sleep la. gotta dream of *****. heheh. adios & peace out fuckas.

2004-07-25T00:52:00.000+08:00

..Xtreme boredom.. yeah, boredom. nothin much in skewl, got CSP. den didn't do the CIP thingy. lepak-lepak onli. hahah. so move on to lot1, bought sum stuff there. then saw dis fuchun sec chick outside popular, Fuh-Cun dok!! being a typical freak, smiled at her. she smile back sia!! hahah. very unXpected. den went to bpp, met idayu there. talk-talk, laugh-laugh. get bored easily coz my cigarette stock going low. so walk her home. she wanted to carry an oven to her nenek's place ard 5+, but she ferget to call me liao. hahah. poor thing, had to carry all by herself. hey hey, she aint dat bad eh? i sumhow got atracted to her sia!! heheh. wokay, the truth is out. hope SHE'LL be happy wif dat zuhairi or whoever the riverside guy is aite. IQAH, take gd care of urself k. till her fuckas, my eyes droopy oredi sia. :: ADIOS & PEACE OUT ::

2004-07-18T16:16:00.000+08:00

Until The Day I Die

Until the day I dieI'll spill my heart for you, for youUntil the day I dieI'll spill my heart for you As years go by I race the clock with youBut if you die right nowYou know that I'd die tooI'd die too You remind me of the timesWhen I knew who I was (I was)But still the second hand will catch usLike it always does We'll make the same mistakesI'll take the fall for youI hope you need this nowCause I know I still do Until the day I die (Until the day I die)I'll spill my heart for youUntil the day I die (Until the day I die)I'll spill my heart for you Should I bite my tongue?Until blood soaks my shirtWe'll never fall apartTell me why this hurts so muchMy hands are at your throatAnd I think I hate youBut still we'll say, "remember when"Just like we always doJust like we always do Until the day I die (Until the day I die)I'll spill my heart for youUntil the day I die (Until the day I die)I'll spill my heart for you Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!! My hands are at your throatAnd I think I hate youWe made the same mistakesMistakes like friends do My hands are at your throatAnd I think I hate youWe made the same mistakesMade the same mistakes Until the day I dieI'll spill my heart for you, for youUntil the day I die (Until the day I die)I'll spill my heart for you, for youUntil the day I die (Until the day I die)I'll spill my heart for youUntil the day I die (Until the day I die)Until the day I die!!!
:: this goes to Iqah ::

2004-07-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

fucking disastrous day

ferstly, i lost my fucking phone in skewl. got bloody pissed off sia!! dunno who took it. shudn't hav gone to skewl in da first place, coz my legs are fucking injured. i cant study da throughout da whole day. got so stressed up. smoked again. i guess i'll never stop smoking, NEVER. i'll rather smoke TILL i die!!
den came da painful news. she want a breakup. it KILLED me off. haiz. she want it, rite? ok, fine with dat. it's hard to accept, but i'll respect her decision. my heart crashed, REALLY crashed. one day, i could feel da relationship blooming, den it died suddenly. it'll never work if we go on. coz i find it bloody stupid if i'm happy when she's not. I ADMIT DAT I'M NOT GOOD FOR HER. I FEEL DAT I'M JUZ A FUCKING FAILURE IN LOVE. so wish her da best. i'm gonna miss her. i kept questioning myself, she still love me or not? will she ever come back to me? stupid question, i guess. no matter wat, i'll ALWAYS love her. but i dont expect da same from her, though.

i have no spirit. my spirit is already dead. i lost HER. i lost EVERYTHING. i dont feel lyke updating dis shit ever again. leave it here. leave it dead. adios & peace out.

...GAME OVER...

2004-07-13T16:01:00.000+08:00

bonjour. comment allez-vous baiseurs? chacun bien? so, skewl sucks as before. boring. yeah, boring!! shudn't have gone to skewl sia. throat got fucking sore. wadda hell happen to me sia? get sick easily these daes. a sign fer me to stop smoking? hmmmm. maybe. iqah, miss yah too much la dear!! lurv yah alot!! hehehe. ok baiseurs. till here. adios & peace out.

...м¥ ħ€ÄŖ† ï§ ƒõŘ м¥ õńĔ åŃÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåħ...

2004-07-11T15:06:00.000+08:00

yeah fuckas. holla holla to ya'll. i'm sick, love sick!! love her so so so much!! met my dear yesterdae afta CSP shit in skewl. spent tyme wif her, hang ard at lot1, talk wif her & all. went up to da library, chill. den took a pic at dat damn machine upstairs. saw hannah & khairan there. made a few rounds ard da lot den sent her home. promised her dat i'll stop smoking, or at least smoke lesser. she's juz so so so sweet!! heheheh. yeah, she really sweeten up my gloomy days. den todae, not going newhere, fuck sia. kla fuckas, dunno wat else to add. i lurv ya alot iqah.

...м¥ ħ€ÄŖ† ï§ ƒõŘ м¥ õńĔ åŃÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåħ...

2004-07-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

yeah fuckas. holla again. i'm still sick in my head sia. boring day. chill at bpp afta skewl, bought & smoke sum weed. den move on to lot1 ard 2.30, met my bro. got fucking bored, so go back to bpp. met da "Misliana Clones", wahida & ella at da library. talked rubbish & shit fer bout 45mins, den go home. smoke weed again. got high. sleep. stupid of me sia. bad habit. wake up & here i am. k dudes & dudettes, till here aite. lurv u lots iqah. muahz.

...м¥ ħ€ÄŖ† ï§ ƒõŘ м¥ õńĔ åŃÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåħ...

2004-07-08T20:49:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. yeah, i'm sick, dead sick. shud have stayed at home, but forced to go to skewl. to make it worse, da whole day rained, damn it sia. so did those usual shit in skewl. den went to lot1, buy a fucking file at popular. saw my dear wif her groupees. we didn't reali meet, juz a mere sight. she wanna go to her fren's place or sumwhere, i cant remmber. my head is crammed wif troubled thoughts & all. stressed up. so, got home & went downstairs to smoke. finished up bout half-a-box. hmmmmm. i guess nobody will ever care if i stop smoking or not, rite? k fuckas. till here. i really lurv u iqah.

...м¥ ħ€ÄŖ† ï§ ƒõŘ м¥ õńĔ åŃÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåħ...

2004-07-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

hey fuckas. sorry fer not updating dis shit regularly. i'm juz feeling feverish & not in da gd mood. hmmmm. so todae is another dae full of shit. skipped my ever motherfucking CSP. chill in skewl. den my dearest called ard 5.30, but didn't answer coz i left my hp silent inside my damn bag. didn't realize. so sorry k dear!! n yeah, tot of meeting her, but she got hold up by her asshole teacher. but den she got sumthing on in skewl tomoro, so not meeting up wif her, again. quite disappointed though. but i cant do nething, coz time does not permit. hmmmm. wat else to add? i guess i typed enuf shit fer todae. so till here fuckas. iqah, i miss u alot!! lurv ya oways dearest!!

adios & peace out

...м¥ ħ€ÄŖ† ï§ ƒõŘ м¥ õńĔ åŃÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåħ...

2004-07-04T15:49:00.000+08:00

holla dudes & dudettes. i'm now stuck in my damn room, coz hav fever. fuck sia. supposed to play soccer, now cannot. dunno when it'll go away. so tomorrow no skewl. i'll use da time to revise those subjs i haven't cover. 15 weeks to 0-levels man, not much time left. iqah dear, i hope we can meet on tuesdae k. but remmber to call me ferst tau. lurv & miss u lots dear. so fuckas, dat's all. adios & peace out.

...м¥ ħ€ÄŖ† ï§ ƒõŘ м¥ õńĔ åŃÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåħ...

2004-07-03T14:48:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. its been quite sum time i last updated dis shit. so i did my MT-oral yesterdae. went real smooth at ferst, but cocked-up fer da 2nd conversation topic. fuck it man. but it's not a big deal neway, i got an A2 last yr, so 2pts secured. den todae, took my Mt listenin compre. not bad arh. but again, no big deal. afta dat, went to smoke some weed. hang fer awhile at BPP, den head home. so fuckas, till here aite. luv ya iqah.

...м¥ ħ€ÄŖ† ï§ ƒõŘ м¥ õńĔ åŃÐ øÑ£¥ ¡Qåħ...

2004-07-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. todae is skewl as per normal. damn stretch of free periods sia, cant control my boredom. afta skewl, went to smoke weed wif da usual guys. den move on to lot1, went to meet iqah at da library. go for makan, sit there & talk-talk. she's so sweet & cute dat i melt! hahah. sit fer so long but cant finish our meal. ard 5.15, she wanna go home, so i go wif her. cant resist her smile, craving fer her touch. we've got thru onli a short mile, but i like her so much! kla fuckas, till here. miss ya iqah.

...adios & peace out fuckas...

2004-06-27T00:58:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. early in da morning, my head felt so heavy & sick sia. maybe bcoz of those shit stuck in my head. so juz now did absolutely nothin' in da morning, laze ard lyke a half-dead fucker. to kill time, i smoked bout half a box in 60mins flat. den ard 3pm, met Mas at lrt petir. we proceed to sumwhere near NUS to watch her fren perform. da prformance start at 4.30 & end at 10pm, but both of us left ard 7 coz i was juz fucking bored. went to hav some shit for dinner, kissed me & den go home. rest fer awhile & then help ma dad wash his motorbike. suddenly he said dat he want me to get my bike license ASAP so dat i can follow him riding up to Thailand! great sia! wokay la fuckas. till here, wanna watch MotoGP & dat Holland-Sweden match.

...adios & peace out fuckas...

2004-06-24T13:30:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas. i'm back bloggin dis shit. nothin has happened todae. so lemme' tell ya wat i did fer da past days...

22nd June '04

went to play soccer, end at ard 9am. den went to Julie's home,
she's ill & need ma help. coz her parents went to johor & back ard 12 noon. so spent my time talkin bout our relatnships & all. den afta dat, went to meet Mas. we planned to go sentosa da day before, so she brought along bout 7 of her frenz. abit noisy la. at sentosa, we juz chill & smoke all out. ard 8pm, time to go home. den inside bus, Mas gave me a kiss & hug me along da way. shocked. unexpected. enjoyed? maybe, but who cares rite?

yesterday

wanna go sentosa agn, dis time wif my skewl dudes & dudettes. but got a big prob, dun wanna elaborate on dat. so no chillout moment fer da day. tried to get it done & over wif her, fer da whole day.

...adios & peace out fuckas...

2004-06-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

.·*¨*·.I'm so tired of being here..Suppressed by all my childish fears.. And if you have to leave.. I wish that you would just leave..'Cause your presence still lingers here..And it won't leave me alone.·*¨*·.

×.·*¨*·.¤ f|ra`Sw|t¤.·*¨*·.×

eh...mcm perna dgr kan fira?!? soryla..i noe all this la..so hope u happy wif him aite..!! kla..i'll update dis shit some other day..

...adios & peace out fuckas...

2004-06-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

todae is "Boxing Day"...i noe we dont hav dat shit in S'pore, but i had boxing juz now. well...ard 6pm, went over to Yanto's place at bedok to take back my soccer boots. den when inside mrt, dis young matrep gav me a fuckin stare sia...nk step garang depan mataer die la tuh. aku buat bodo je, psal mls nk gado. den bile da nk sampai umah yanto, si matrep tu datang lagi. die ajak aku gado, konon2 psal aku stare kat mataer die. hahah...tu yg buat aku gelak sia. his fucking size is da same as my 11yr old bro...& still want to pick a fight on me. aku ckp kat bdk tu yg aku taknak gado...tapi bile die start tumbok-tendang aku, aku pon bagi la penumbok kat muker die. mcm kesian pon ade seh...kene tumbok depan mataer sendiri...tsk tsk tsk. wat's happenin to young kiddos nowadays sia? tryin to act big, but end up gettin bashed. so after collectin my crap, went home straight & sleep. den wake up & here i am, typing all dis shit...so till here fellow fuckas...

...adios & peace out...

2004-06-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas...todae is a fuckin bored dae afta day-long enjoyment yesterdae. neway there's quite a few happenins lately. so lemme tell ya some shits aite...

12.06.04

dis day, uncle aku kawin...so obviously aku kene tolong kat blakang, lap2 pinggan mangkok ngan angkat2 barang. yg pompuan2 mcm dilah rocker ngan kak syimah jadi tukang bagi berkat and kutip pinggan kotor. tyme buat keje pon boring...so sambil2 tu isap rokok la. pehhhh...tangan lenguh & terkopek2 kulit tangan aku dibuatnye...tapi still orite arh. den between breaks tu gi isap rokok ngan kak syimah & kidah...bual2 pastu buat keje lagik. so tu lah keje aku throughout da day...balek je teros tido...

13.06.04

so yesterdae my 17th berfday...ard 2pm, julie call nk jumpe. so met her outside petir lrt station. she gave me a long hug sia...den dudok bebual kat bawah blok. told me bout shits happenin in her farkin lyfe...den skali die sound patch. aku ckp tengok dulu la...bsok2 aku bagi answer. so gi hang at causeway point delifrance kejap pastu gi makan den send her home. balek je teros tido...damn tired...so till here fuckas...

...Peace Out Fuckas...

2004-06-11T16:15:00.000+08:00

holla fuckas...now sufferin from a fucked up brain. i've been buzy lately & up till saturdae, coz my uncle kawin dis sat. so yesterdae die gi nikah, tapi aku tk ikot...mls arh, chill ngan cuzzins kat umah nenek lagi cantek kan. so dudok2 bebual taik, den turon bawah beli supply rokok...yg tak best nye bile kene bawak Baby Bulan skali. siut betol...aku jugak yg kene angkat die...dahtu die muntah pulak kene baju aku...hahah...suwey beb. den lamer2 naek boring pulak kat situ...rokok jgak yg jadi obat boring aku. ari nih aku rilek arh...mls nk kluar arh. kla fuckas...till here...aku tido pon sedap arh...

...PEACE OUT FUCKAS...

2004-06-08T15:55:00.000+08:00

Broken Dreams

Within this chaos of metal...
Lies the remains of broken dreams...
Speed records shattered or...
Salesmen false stated schemes...
Late for a lovers meeting...
Wild rides on darkened roads...
Absent for passionate greeting...
As death hungrily enfolds...
Crumpled metal entails...
Crumpled lives that fails...

2004-06-02T18:17:00.000+08:00

2dae public holidae...so went swimming at jurong east wif sum of my old pri sch frens. damn lot of ppl there sia...chix included of coz...hahah!! malas nk swim so gi maen2 kat lazy pool dulu. den skali got dis group of honey buns ale2 terjon dlm pool tuh...yg satu ni pulak lompat direct kene kepale aku sia. hahah...punye la saket!! tapi ape nk buat...eksiden la katekan. so aku pon kenal2 la ngan bdk tu. name die Shahira, cun siak...yg sial nye aku luper pulak nk mintak nomber die!! melepas siol satu peluang...hahah. lepas tu maen2 slide pulak...den terserempak ngan julie. die mintak nomber aku psal da lost contact lepas break last yr. da lame tk bual2, so bebual ngan die along da way home. sampai ruma je teros tido...bangon tido den online arh. kla till here peeps...updatin dis fucking blog sum time later...adios & peace out.

2004-05-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm...actualy ari ni pon aku tkde mood nk update arh...fuckin bored sia. skewl bored to da core...den go lepak wif Lin & Hidaya at Mac Bukit Panjg Plaza...eat & talk-talk 4 awhile den go up to da library...talk-talk again den go Lot1. jln2 at lot den tersrempak ngan hidayat wif doraemon. abeh bile da boring, aku pon blah la...

alah...mood aku utk update blog sialan ni blom dtg la...maseh pening like fuck nih. lain kali aku update panjg2 la eh...k adios & peace out.

2004-05-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

aaarrrgghh...!! aku nga pening like fuck nih...saket sak kepale aku!! IF YOU WANT TO BE WIF ME, I'M WILLIN TO ACCEPT YOU ONCE AGAIN...I'M DEAD SERIOUS BOUT DIS... ah cukop la...aku nk blah la sial..!! tkde mood siak nk update ari nih...!!

ADIOS...

2004-05-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

harlow...2dae fucking boring..!! i was so bored dat i dont feel lyk cuming 2 skewl 2moro...furthermore, dat bitchy cikgu aishah & cikgu fatimah keep on botherin me..!! si fatimah tk puas ati yg aku gi dudok ngan dope & aoul...as usual la. yg si aishah tu pulak...mulot takle diam sak...telinge aku panas siot!! fuyoo...takle angkat sak aku dudok kat klaz mlayu tu...haiz...REAL UPSET SIAL...!!

den been SMSing Lin everydae lately...i'm totally flattered...she's sweet man!! fuuhh...tenang siket hati aku...ceyy...i love u la my dearest Lin..!! cant wait 2 see ya in skewl 2moro arh Lin...

kkla peeps...till here oni. adios & peace out...

2004-05-23T16:45:00.000+08:00

harlow peeps...i'm back bloggin afta missing for so long...i miss u guyz!! so been farkin bored lately...waste my time at lot1 again & again...lepak la wat else. skewl sux as usual...but now chillout time afta those exams. next week will be one hell of a week coz study MT onli...fuck it man!!

so fira...u nk ngan si 'rios' tu eh? klau nk ngan die tu pon, knape tk blang i dulu? yg si 'rios' tu pon satu...nk maen kebas je bini aku...tkde konek kepe? dah la fira...klau u tknak ngan i lagi, at least pon blang i la k...

kla peeps...till here. adios & peace out..!!

2004-04-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

2dae lepak at Lot1 afta skewl wif Dope, Sam, Zal, Hilmi & Faidul. malas nk balek awal psal boring giler kat umah. smoke dulu den go up to da library. dudok kat sane bual2 taik & bace magz...quite boring ah actually. lepak nye lepak...ard 4.30 teros ciao. balek tido lagi bagos sak...

fira...please la eh. dat idayu is juz my godsis la...takde lebih dari tu...stakat adek angkat je. dat doesn't mean i tk love u...i still love u mcm dulu la fira, love u more than i love idayu. haiz...i dunno how u feel bout me...

kla peeps...till here oni.
adios & peace out...

2004-04-29T17:47:00.000+08:00

bored to death seyh...i tink i've smoked 15 stix oredi, juz for 2dae alone. haiya...sumthin's buggin my mind lately. aarrgghh...dunno la...sumtimes still tink of her...shud i giv her a 2nd chance & bring her back into my life..??? haiz...ntah la eh...aku pon tk tau ape nk buat...

peace out...

2004-04-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

2dae nother OK-OK dae...skewl is quite boring, so i dismissed myself earlier at 1.30pm. went out to nearby block to smoke den return 2 skewl to meet idayu. hav lunch wif her & her mmberz...felt abit awkward coz i'm da onli guy in dat grp of 8 gerls...hahah. so we juz joked n talked shit to kill our time. den ard 3pm we ciao...antar idayu balek, isap rokok along da way. she scold me & want me 2 stop smokin ASAP...coz she luv me & dont wan me 2 die faster...hahah, so nice of her man!! eh late oredi arh...kla till here peeps.

adios & peace out...

2004-04-27T18:21:00.000+08:00

holla...2dae is an OK-OK dae for me. not veri fun...not veri boring. supposed to go to skewl wif idayu 2dae, but den she overslept n came a little late...so i go skewl alone. chillout at study korner...den idayu joined me, dunno y la. sit there talked bout bf/gf thingy & listen 2 da discman. den skali she asked again "u ade gerl?.." & "u sayang i tak?.." hahah...i was so freaked out dat i juz smiled & stared at her face sak.

den recess time my mmbers (incl. me) quarrel wif a prefect...she's a fucked up bitch sak. really hate her to da core man..!! she called up dat moronic DM down & da whole group of us kena round up. hahah...den stand outside DC like criminals. talk & talk...den finally hav 2 write an apology letter to dat bitch.

den we slacked pat kelas mlayu...do nothing sak. eh siak arh...almost 6.30 oredi. kla peeps...gotta go...got madrasah at nite. k ciao & peace out...

SMOKEMACHINE

2004-04-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

yesterdae skewl like shit...damn boring. 2 make it worse, kena called up by Stoink. given a stupid lecture...juz bcoz i sit right at da back of kelas mlayu. so wat seyh..?!?! last tym i sit wif rezza & shah pon salah...padahal dudok ngan diorg doesnt mean aku tk blajar sak. aiseh...mayb her mind got fucked up wif da everydae life. hahah...

eh alamak...till here peeps, going out later. k ciao & peace out...

.feelin' so lifeless.

2004-04-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

holla peeps...nothin much...been hangin on da fone wif idayu lately. went to skewl wif her...talked shit & all. den skali she popped da question "so u ader gerl tak?"...i freaked out siak...hahah. so skool is gerek as usual...except for Malay periods arh, betol tk isma? hahah... having lots of free periods lately. its either da teachers are really sick or juz sick of US..!! so we had our own "MUZIC" lessons arh...listen 2 discman, or juz plain talkin' shit in clazz. den juz now had my damn english oral at 2.35pm...i hate 'picture description' sak...sure get low score.

den 2moro 1st-five periods damn free siak...chillout at library. den...wakaka...jumpe si Stoink-Face lagik!! haiya...no hope of studyin wif dat fatimah...so gotta get A1 4 my malay dis june's paper. so fucked up wif her siol... den mayb play socca afta skewl...depends on my mood arh. wokay la peeps...till here...damn sleepy sak...adios & peace out.

i still love u fira

without you, i could feel my life drainin' away...

2004-04-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

heya peeps...great 2 be back bloggin. skewl makin syiok & pawer each dae...hahah. been smoking real lot these few days...stressed up from studyin. so lepak2 & byk maen bola afta skewl...2 release da growin tension in ma head.

kla peeps...till here...gotta study...ciao!!

love you fira

2004-04-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

Just for you Fira...

If I could touch the stars,
I'd give them all to you,
and if the moon was in my reach,
that would be yours, too.
I pray to see your smile,
To warm and brighten my day.
You always seem to be in my thoughts,
you are special to me, in every way.
Like the stars in the heavens
your eyes shine down on me,
and when you close them tight,
I hope I'm what you see.
I couldn't be any happier,
especially when I'm by your side,
all the feelings I feel,
in you, I try to confide.
Sometimes the words 'I love you'
are hard for me to say,
but my love for you is endless,
and I love you more with each new day.

may you be mine forever

2004-04-11T12:04:00.000+08:00

For her
I'm sorry...
I never meant to be careless with your heart.

Please forgive me...
There's no one in my life
more important to me than you.
And i want you to know
I love you... with all my heart

i'm sorry sayang...

2004-04-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

harlow peeps. sorry...i'm not being myself lately, stressed up by things happenin around me, in my cursed life. my brain go hay-wire & i did some crazy things. the bad thing is, i restarted my smoking habit. i finished more than a box for 2dae alone. haiz...dont know why all these shit is happenin to me.

i wanna apologise to u peeps if i said or did nething bloody wrong lately...especially to my sayang, sorry eh sayang. i nga sot siket arh...damn stressed up. kla peeps...wanna watch man utd match...adios. i love you fira...muahzz...

may our love last forever

2004-04-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps, really no mood to update my fucking blog...

.:: I LoVe U LoTs FiRa DaRLiN'...MuAcKss..!! ::.

2004-03-27T12:16:00.000+08:00

went to skool...see my damn teacher. then go play soccer at pending streetsoka court. kill my time there playin socca...farkin fun. then my fun was cut short...got into a fight. this assholic guy happy2 kicked my shin deliberately throughout the games. when i really cannot tahan nemore, i let him taste my fists. i try to keep my head cool, but immatured morons spoiled it all...really pissed me off. klah...till here. updating in later part of da day.

i missed my sayang alot...it juz makes my love for her stronger...love u fira...muahzz..!!

.:: I LoVe U LoTs FiRa DaRLiN'...MuAcKss..!! ::.

2004-03-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...i love my fira...forever loving her..!!

.:: I LoVe U LoTs FiRa DaRLiN'...MuAcKss..!! ::.

2004-03-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

wanna make a strong reminder...i'm already attached, so dont flirt around wif me..!!

todae skool is more hell than usual. my godsistas tak abes2 nk salam aku...konon2 rindu habes la tuh. yg godbros sume rilek aje...yg ade blom ape2 da mintak rokok, yg ade nk suro aku gi hang budak. aiseh...malas la aku. aku repeat psal nk blaja...bukannye nk hadap muker diorg seh. si DM lak tangkap aku psal rambot panjg, padahal da pendek siak. rambot kaler die tak sebot, panjg stakat kat eyebrow pon da ribot...kimakz ah dektu. ah malas ah nk panjg2 ari ni...bsok2 sua la eh. i love u fira...muahzz!!

.:: I LoVe U LoTs FiRa DaRLiN'...MuAcKss..!! ::.

2004-03-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER..?? AND WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME..?!? DID I SAY OR DO ANYTHING WRONG..? I DONT KNOW WHY THIS SHIT IS HAPPENING. IF I EVER DID OR SAID ANYTHING THAT HURTS U, PLEASE FORGIVE ME...

PLEASE GOD, SHOW ME LIGHT...SHOW ME WHAT'S WRONG AND WHAT'S RIGHT...PLEASE HELP ME GOD..!! I'M TOTALLY LOST, CONFUSED, ANGERED, FULL OF SORROW...ALL IN ONE. PLEASE...HELP ME...

.:: MISERABLE SOUL ::.